Thoughts

I want scholarships so badly!!!

Okay, I will try my best to ace my SPM first then fight for it. I'm fired up dy. Go go go!


School had been fun these days. Games and chats were the main activities all the time. Most of us seemed to lose some momentum in revision. In fact, I think we should learn something new. At least it won't bore me and send me under Morpheus' spell. I noticed that some of my friends are really diligent and hardworking. They just can't stop studying and reading books. I salute them. I wonder why I can't seem to improve my language much. People can score that high and write that lengthy. I think I should start to give my best dy. No more taking it easy. I'm gonna shine, might as well let it be from now on. I want to outshine everything else and take this world by storm. Well, this is just a thinking.


I had some crazy ideas recently. I'm thinking of writing stories in my blog during my free time. Should I?


Stories will be random and weird, or mysterious and dark. Just a thought. I'm still pondering and thinking plots. This idea is purely for fun and exploring something new. But if someone spots me, I wouldn't mind at all. 


Future, I see it. What the future holds? It doesn't really clear to me yet. It can't be predicted that accurately. I'm not Nostradamus or his apprentice capable of making prophecy. I don't want the world to end in 2012. I want that year to be a new beginning, but not the end. Don't worry. God save those who save themselves. Be positive. I'm sure something will happen and turn things around.


Class party possible next week. Birthday is on next week. XD


By JM

It's Monday and the start of another week.


Fresh start. I'm feeling better. Thanks for all the support.


I'm thinking of trying something new. Maybe trying something random such as photography or some new sports. There's still time to think and ponder my future. But time flies and slips away. Appreciate time while it lasts.


This second trial is really meaningless. I'm taking it as exercise. If you want to discuss, please try not to be too obvious.


Star Movies is showing tonnes of thrillers this month as it's Halloween soon. Nice.


By JM

Dream on

Finally the letter came last Friday. It wasn't the way I dreamed it to be. Merit Award in ASEAN scholarship. Not the full one. But I said to myself, 'It wasn't that bad, at least I made that far'.


People got the forecast results, but I haven't. Still need to wait for Second Trial to over. It's a waste of time. I am tired of exercises. Now, I'm gonna walk my own way. Still not sure which way. I'm hoping for the best and expecting the worst. I wish that I were somehow rich and have a billion k dollars in my hands. How nice would it be. Thanks to my friends who congratulated me and wish me luck. I promise I won't let you all down in the future. I will try my best always!

Dream on, don't let your dreams die.

This is my quote from now onwards.


By JM

Life, Learning, Future.

Three weeks of Gerak Gempur and Second Trial are waiting me. But I am aiming for SPM and my future. I put my sight further than just a few months or years. I ain't that short-sighted. 


Gerak Gempur was just crap, or rather exercises for us to prepare for SPM. It wasn't that formal and difficult. I finished it and then went on with my own business. After the trial, school life really bored me as teachers finished the supposed syllabus. Now it's down to intense exercises and the so-called Gerak Gempur and Second Trial to further improve our performance. Will the aim be achieved? Wait and see. I just want to learn new things from this point on. I feel like finishing SPM in near time and move on afterwards. 


Life, we gotta move on. We can't stop at this point and say 'now I'm studying for SPM only.' Then, you got your study purpose wrongly set. It should be for the knowledge and our future, more than just SPM. Out of the syllabus stuffs are useful too. You can't say people not smart enough when they didn't score excellent grades in school exam papers or SPM. Maybe people has their own unique talents that can't be valued by merely a school exam. Learning is a life-long process. It doesn't stop here or there. It survives through centuries since creation. The only problem is that its meaning is kinda distorted nowadays. I can see students learning for the sake of high grades and rankings. In my opinion, we should learn for the sake of learning and self-improvements. Sad it is. 


Recently, during some conversations among friends, the topic of our future after SPM circles endlessly. Some of them are so wealthy that they can go on to further studies without the worries of money. For some of us, money is a big problem. We are fighting for scholarships, just for that golden opportunity to get better education for a brighter future. We talked about each other ambitions and the pros and cons. It was nice to have a talk like that. 


Friends, we have to move on and go our separate ways after this year, probably yes. We should fight for our dreams and ambitions. Nobody can stop you. Believe and thrive. 


Nice line from one of my favourite physicist,

 It is a miracle that curiosity survives formal education.

- Albert Einstein -

By JM